Pure talent

[dr_tranny]

As I'm writing this, I'm also playing a MMORPG, and watching a show on the Discovery Channel. A rather disturbing show at that. It appears to be a series called "Supermax," about a super maximum security prison in Indiana. The way some of those guys describe what they did to end up there is unnerving to say the least. Just matter-of-fact, no big deal. "I cut his head off and put it in the microwave..." Talk about creepy. *shudder*

The things I watch at night. Kinda makes ya wonder if there aint something wrong with me? *snicker* Besides what society might have preconceived notions about that is.

So, in the next two weeks, I have to consider the thought that I might have to give up smoking. Yes, T is a great incentive to give up a very bad habit, but incentive alone isn't enough to overcome cravings and withdrawls. If it was, heroin addicts wouldn't keep going back to the needle. I'm hoping we can work out some kind of compromise, like cutting back or something. The last time I tried to quit I ended up gaining about 60 to 80 pounds, and started back up again a few months later. I dunno. I know plenty of guys start T long before quitting smoking, and this doctor's main hangup is that smoking while on T increases the chance of developing blood clots or something like that. Maybe I can convince her to just hand over that script and let me worry about blood clots and shit.

Too many thoughts. Not enough brain. Ugh.

Comments

[highaltitude.livejournal.com]

I know it's not an easy thing to quit smoking, but why not take this opportunity to make more than one positive change in your life? Maybe it'll be easier to quit if you bundle it in with the excitement of going on T.

I drastically changed the way I treated my body within a few months of beginning physical transition. It changed my priorities in ways I had never imagined. A very positive experience. Made it a lot easier to focus on treating my body with respect because it was finally starting to become something I loved.